Episode 30: What Happens After Awareness: Self-Compassion, Fear, and the Inner Dialogue
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In this episode of Collective Guidance, I share a very human moment—one I’m not proud of, but one that holds a powerful lesson. I lost my composure. I reacted. And instead of pretending I was “above it,” I chose to look at what happened after the awareness.
Because awareness alone doesn’t change us.
What changes us is what we do after we notice.
This episode is an invitation to explore what really happens inside us once we’ve had an emotional reaction, a trigger, or a moment we wish we could redo—and how self-compassion, not self-judgment, is the bridge back to regulation and healing.
EP 30 transcript
The Real Battlefield Is Your Inner Dialogue
We often believe the struggle is external—other people, circumstances, past experiences. But the true battlefield is internal.
The words you use with yourself don’t stay in your mind. They move into your nervous system. They settle into your body. Your thoughts shape how safe or unsafe your body feels, which is why you can be doing everything right—eating well, exercising, meditating—and still feel exhausted, inflamed, or stuck.
Most emotional spirals don’t begin with dramatic thoughts. They start quietly:
I should be over this by now.
Why am I still reacting like this?
What’s wrong with me?
Your body hears these thoughts as threats. It braces. It tightens. And over time, those thoughts become embodied tension and pain. This isn’t weakness—it’s protection.
Instead of arguing with the thought or forcing positivity, try asking:
Is this thought making my body feel safer or less safe?
That question alone can interrupt the spiral.
Awareness Is a Practice, Not a Destination
One of the most common frustrations I hear is:
“But I already know this. Why am I still struggling?”
Awareness isn’t something you achieve once and keep forever. It fades under stress. It disappears when you’re tired, overwhelmed, grieving, or triggered. That doesn’t mean you’re regressing—it means you’re human.
Awareness is like a muscle. It strengthens through repetition, not perfection.
The real issue isn’t losing awareness.
It’s how you treat yourself when you realize you’ve lost it.
Self-judgment shuts awareness down immediately. Curiosity brings it back. When you notice you’ve spiraled, try saying:
“Oh, I’m back here again,”
not with disappointment—but with gentleness.
Healing isn’t about staying calm all the time. It’s about returning faster, repairing instead of punishing, and choosing again without drama.
That’s mastery.
Fear Isn’t the Problem — Avoidance Is
Fear has been unfairly labeled as the enemy. In reality, fear is information. It tells you something matters. It tells you you care.
What creates suffering is avoidance.
When you avoid speaking your truth, setting boundaries, asking for support, or expressing emotion, fear doesn’t disappear—it turns into shame. And shame thrives in silence.
There’s an important distinction here:
Cocooning is intentional and temporary.
Hiding is driven by fear of being seen and reinforces the belief that something about you is unacceptable.
Courage doesn’t mean pushing yourself before you’re ready. It means choosing expression over suppression when the moment is right—telling one safe person the truth, writing it down, letting yourself cry.
Expression dissolves shame. Silence strengthens it.
What I Hope You Take From This Episode
If nothing else, take this with you:
You don’t need to be less afraid—you need to be more honest with yourself.
Healing doesn’t ask you to disappear into silence; it asks you to stay present, even when it’s uncomfortable.
Every time you notice, soften, and choose again, you’re not failing—you’re practicing.
If you’ve had a human moment recently (or you will—and you will), my wish is that you meet yourself after awareness with compassion instead of blame.
You’re not behind.
You’re not broken.
And you’re not alone in the human experience.
Thank you for being here, and thank you for walking this path with me.
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Sending love, remembrance, faith, and creativity,
Charla ❤️
